Sixteen year old in distress. comment?

its very cliche for me to rant about anything at all, but here goes. i am a high school junior. i have friends; im not an outcast even though sometimes i say i am. i think im seeing a guy in our high school frat, who im not sure i like anymore because he smokes (or quit recently, but spits on the ground a lot) litters and cusses. i have many best friends but if youre counting how many are really true, i would say not many. my grades descend as my moods grow darker. i used to see a therapist for depression due to ual abuse/molestation as a child and cutting ties in there somewhere, but i fired her. i believe i am not depressed, but sometimes i acknowledge im lying to myself. i have a rather distant relationship with my parents and siblings. i now consider cheating to p cles since everyone else is doing it and its quite easy to. i am a writer, but ive had writers block for the past month or so. i rushed for our high school sorr but didnt make it. i have issues, i get it.